Y’all this is a hard post for me to write.
Not hard, in that I don’t know what to say, but hard in that it is a hard subject for me to talk about.
2 years ago I blogged for another mom blog and I wrote this big elaborate post on changing my lifestyle and finally getting healthy. I was so excited and ready. I even dared to post pictures of myself in a sports bra and yoga pants as well as my starting weight. And here I am 2 years later and nothing has changed.
Wait, that’s a lie…… I have actually gained weight since that post.
They say the struggle is real, and well, it really really is. I am addicted to food. And I am lazy.
And that has to change.
I am scared to put it out there that I am giving this another go. I don’t want to find myself in this same spot in 2 years again. But I know I have to get over the being scared. And I have to get off the couch. And I have to make changes.
On Monday I took steps in the right direction. I started the 21 Day Fix. It’s a program I saw a lot on social media, and after checking it out I thought it would be perfect to get me started. 30 minute work outs (although I learned the hard way that just because they are short doesn’t mean they aren’t HARD) and then portion control and watching what I eat.
I am scared of failing. Of quitting this go round too. But I am not going to let the fear stop me. I know it’s going to be hard. And it is going to take time. But I am hoping that this time will be different. I am more aware of things this go round. I am prepping meals, and journaling and I have my village of girlfriends that have been checking in on me and sending me sweet motivational texts.
I am not putting any bra pictures on the internet today…..one on the web forever is enough, but I will be sharing my before and after when I complete my 21 Day Fix. So stay tuned for that in just 3 weeks.
If anyone has done the Fix before, I want to know. I would love to hear your advice and favorite meal suggestions.
Here’s to starting over in this weightless journey. And here’s to grace, because let’s be real, we can never have too much.