So a week or so ago I posted my thoughts on getting older.
And now here I sit at the computer screen and try to wrap my head around how in the world I now how have an eleven year old.
I blinked and literally we went from this….
Someone needs to explain themselves.
To say I am not ready for her to grow up would be the understatement of the year.
Partially because I am terrified of her teenage years. Teenage girls be CRAZY yo.
I know, I used to be one.
But really, I hate that she is growing up so fast and today it’s 11, then 16, and then 18. We are talking driving, and college……makes me sick to my stomach.
That girl right there, she is my baby. She made me a mom for the very first time. I was so young, and so scared and Madisyn came into my life and she gave me purpose. It was like all the poor choices I had made up to that point no longer mattered, because on September 23, 2003 she entered the world and just like that I realized I was created to be a mom. And not just any mom, but her mom…and it clicked in my selfish 21 year old brain that it wasn’t all about me anymore.
All those things I learned in my now 32 years of life……Madisyn is a big part of me learning them.
Friendships? I learned who my true friends were when I had Madisyn.
Good In The World? Madisyn always sees it. She is my glass is always half full girl, ready to make the best out of any situation thrown her way. She has had some heartache in her eleven years of life and the way she always looks for the positive, even in the dark times, is inspiring.
Forgiveness? Not a clue where she gets it, but the girl is good with grace. So many times I have failed her as a mom, but she never would let me know it. She is quick to forgive and encourage. Always ready to hug it out and remind you that you are loved.
Change? HA! I am pretty sure nothing can phase this girl. It went from her and I only, then marrying Will, then having Megan, then having the boys…..LOTS and lots of change over the years. Not to say there were never difficult days or adjustments, because of course there were, but she has adapted so well to all the many changes that have taken place over the years. Always a smile on her face.
She never ceases to amaze me, and as terrified as I am about her growing up and what the next several years will look like, I life to reflect back on all the things she already knows at such a young age and remind myself that it is going to be just fine, and that God has BIG things planned for this one.
11 years with that girl, and I can easily say they have been the best and most rewarding 11 years of my life.
Here is to the next 11 and all that they will bring.